Saturday, January 24, 2015

SAW

Couldn't bring myself to Google Image to find an image for this franchise, for the fear to see any of the blood-shed traps, mutilated body or dangling organs. I am not a horror movie fan, nor I am now, after watching the franchise. I remembered watching Child's Play when I was young and I am still horrified even until today.

Like the infamous line in Saw, 'one must make sacrifice in order to get to something'. I needed inspirations for an upcoming project. Hence putting myself into this pain to finish the franchise. Saw is a brilliant franchise. Its intertwined series of events and interrelated characters form a very interesting plot. The smart techniques of timeline manipulation and frequent use of flashbacks fool me and my companion every single film without fail.  The consistency of the film structure and the hidden tips in each tape contributed to its brilliancy. And of course, including the infamous traps which I skipped or watched through the small gap of my fingers, aiming to 'educate' the 'players' to appreciate their lives.

I got to agree with the intention of John's, the mastermind of the traps. People are unappreciative towards their lives. We think that we have it all and we take things for granted, myself included. I played with risks and put myself in unnecessary situations. I have a 'perfect' pathway laid in front of me but I want to take the road less and difficult travelled. I do ask myself  why and what I am trying to prove.

Other than that, I feel Saw brings a lot of other moral lessons despite the traps being inhumane and immoral. Examples include, be forgiveable, coordinate, don't lie, don't cheat, don't do drugs, don't take advantage of other people, don't be racist and more. The traps inflict pain into themselves or other people, physically and/or mentally as a form of rebirth. That punishment is probably too harsh and too painful. I do believe in karma, and I do believe that karma will do its job.

The traps in Saw reveal a lot of human imperfections. 'How much blood will you shed in order to survive' or 'What will you sacrifice in order to live' or the most familiar of all 'Live or Die. Make your Choice', will often lead the 'players' into performing some grisly acts. I find self-inflicted pains are tolerable to watch but not when pain is inflicted upon someone else, either with an automated machine or a sudden death between 'players'.

The franchise has indeed inspired an upcoming project, which idea started all the way back in October 2014. If this project works, it'd be another dream come true where it is something I've always wanted to try. But this time, with much more content-controlled and self-disciplined I hope. We will see how things go.

Now that I finished 7 Saw films in 4 weekends, what should I anticipate next? I find myself reading the synopsis and reviews, to catchup what I have missed since 2004 for 7 years. Well, a week to focus on my Marketing course and another week of adventure before a tough two months ahead.



Love,
Wen Xin

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Less than One

So I am a fan of Wong Fu Production, not for a very long time, just probably within a year when the sad university life makes students seeing the laptop screen, probably comes first before the smartphone screen. I was having dinner and wanted to catch up with the latest Wong Fun video, and there is it.


It is a very short film but it is very interesting, it talks about the probability of find a soul mate or someone perfect. It turns out it was 0.53 person for the girl. The creator of the video also created a website for people (like me) to find the probability of someone 'perfect'. 


1 of 7


2 of 7


3 of 7


4 of 7
Just to clarify, looks matter but it doesn't matter the most. It doesn't even come second. But look is the physical trait that tell you something. Not so much on the facial look, but the overall physique, on how one carries himself.  


5 of 7
Not a second thought about this rating.


6 of 7
Yes but it doesn't have to be entirely the same.


7 of 7

I was expecting a figure below 2. Because so far, I have only met 2 which are potentially 'perfect'. Thinking about them will always put a smile on my face. The smile will eventually retract after awhile, because they are gone. 

Just finding this website interesting, the figure is highly hypothetical and it doesn't truly mean anything. I have a friend who does not believe in soul mate at all. Do I? 


I do,
Wen Xin 

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Nothing At All

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This summer
You left me alone
I realise
That we both are too different

I can see where are you heading to
Too bad I'll never have the freedom

What took me so long
Is the slight hope I hold
I thought I'm strong
 But I was so wrong

How did you let me go
Why don't try to hold on
What hurts the most
When it's nothing at all, at all

Last winter
I hold your hands
I realise
That we are quite similar

I can sense the sorrow and the pain
Too bad I never dare to ask

What took me so long
Is the slight hope I hold
I thought I'm strong
 But I was so wrong

How did you let me go
Why don't try to hold on
What hurts the most
When it's nothing at all, at all

I can't take it
I am waiting
Like a fool
On other side

I stop myself 
From feeling upset
Like a river
It never stops

I just wanna cry no more
Knowing that you're gone for whatever you are fighting for
I just wanna know one last thing
How do you feel about me

What took me so long
Is the slight hope I hold
I thought I'm strong
 But I was so wrong

How did you let me go
Why don't try to hold on
What hurts the most
When it's nothing at all, at all

*

'Nothing at all' is the third official song I wrote on relationship. The song is expressed in the distinct three feelings I felt; sad at the verse, disappointed at the chorus and angry at the bridge. It tells the difference and similarity I had with this person, on how things start in winter but end in summer, on how I have been since it ends. Yeah that's it, that's all, nothing at all. 

While the four questions in the chorus are connected, but it was actually four separate questions on different contexts. How did you let me go or you weren't holding me at the first place? Why don't you try to hold on to the option that there is an alternative? What hurts you the most until this thought can even come up? When does all the things you built means nothing at all? Further twist can be done for more questions, but I think this is it. 

2015 has been eventful so far, and this event is definitely the first unexpected one. During the first week of January, I wrote down in my planner as a reminder: 'In the event a distraction pops up, acknowledge it and tell yourself 'NO DISTRACTIONS', focus on your goals.'

The birth of this song was initiated on Sunday after a football match. I was alone on a crowded bus with earphones plugged to my ears. It was playing Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Rey on repeat until I reached home. Within half or an hour, the verse was done and the remaining of song was completed two days later. It was also partially inspired by Back to December by Taylor Swift and a song which is stuck in my head for years. I always thought it was Kelly Clarkson's but to no avail, I couldn't find it.

Perhaps I should credit this particular event and thank the person behind the inspiration of the event. I probably don't have the chance any more, but at least I have two songs, inspired by and dedicated to you. What's ahead is ferocious, I am excited and scared, but I am feeling optimistic and hopeful. Let the fourth semester began with faith.


Love,
Wen Xin

Friday, January 16, 2015

Passer By

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Lights were on
Windows shut
I wonder what were you doing

Thinking back
Of the memories we had

Did I mean something to you
Or I am just a passer by
But I'll never
Ever find the truth

I don't understand
I don't comprehend
Are those the reasons why
You shun me off your life

I wonder why
You couldn't answer me
But its alright
Better left unanswered
Better left unguided

That one night
I was weak
I thought we had the chemistry

Look ahead
Of the future we might have

Have I gone too far ahead
It's always been one-sided love
But I'll never
Ever find the truth

I don't understand
I don't comprehend
Are those the reasons why
You shun me off your life

I wonder why
You couldn't answer me
But its alright
Better left unanswered
Better left unguided

Everytime I hold your hands tight
Everytime I look into your eye
But everytime I let it go and turn my head away
And I felt a sharp pierce in my heart
Boiling tears in my eyes
It's never gonna be the same or better without you

I don't understand
I don't comprehend
Are those the reasons why
You shun me off your life

I wonder why
You couldn't answer me
But I know why
We are never
Meant to be together

I was never
Significant

*

I wrote this song in 2011, for a Down-Syndrome kid I took care of during an event. Her name was Sabiha, she had short hair with a charming smile. But for some reason, she never accepted me as her guardian of the day. She ran away from my grip and she rejected my love. The inspiration of this song came within minutes and I completed it in a sauna room in gym the next day. Pretty random huh. But I never got the drive to record it.




Until today, 4 years later, an event inspired me in changing the lyrics and recording this song to move on. It was obviously too high-pitched and my first singing debut. This version of the song addresses a story that never gets to develop, a tale that ends abruptly with questions left unanswered and myself left unguided. It is a true story, it is bittersweet and it is unexpected. Similarly with Sabiha, I am left with a sharp pierce to my heart and boiling tears in my eyes. The truth is, it hurts. But there is nothing I can do, not when I am just a passer by.







Moving on,
Wen Xin

Friday, January 9, 2015

2cellos


I was supposed to catch them, 2cellos last May, but I was too tight up with studies and things that I *ahem* was not supposed to lay my hands on. I looked down in disappointment and thought that I had missed one of my favourite artists. 

Well, truth is, they return to Australia in less than a year and I caught up with them, without a single hesitation or second thought. The concert started 40 minutes late, we were warmed up with 4 slow songs. The crowd, consisted mainly working class and family, dressed in formal and semi-formal. The Canberran crowd took long to warm up with the funny cellist, Stjepan Hauser reminding us that 'this is not a classical concert'.

Right from the start, I looked at them in awe. I had never seen that much passion, intensity and emotions in performance. Thoughts filled my mind, I was asking myself if I have that much passion in thing(s) I do, or if I can ever have enough passion for the thing(s) I want to do. I asked if I want to focus all my strength in doing great in one thing or I want to do good in multiple things. I have already had an answer for this long time ago. But once awhile, 'What Ifs' popped up.



The joker of the duo, Stjepan Hauser. Head banging, hair flicking, and flirty. The rocker certainly revolutionizes the traditional way of playing and holding cello. 


I think I have fallen in love. Luka Šulić, whom I admire his emotion attachment when he plays. Even though I am 18 rows away from the stage, I can feel his passion in every note he plays.

The best concert I had ever been to, the hall's lights effect were great, the drummer Dušan Kranjc is a great complement to the duo when they switched to electric cello in just a flick. I was smiling throughout the night, and hoping this will be part of the inspiration for 2015.

Thank you 2cellos, for making it a great night.


Love,
Wen Xin